Down To Business...

Soo.. I know I've been talking about this guy. Who I really like, even though he's out of my league and I don't have a chance with him anyway.. But lately, I've had a little too much time to think about things. And something that's been puzzling me, is my thoughts about the past. I've been thinking about someone who used to really care for me, but I always turned away from, time after time. And it's funny, when you are in the moment, you don't realize certain things, but when you look back you realize what really was going on. Now, don't get me wrong, everyone involved has moved on and is over it. I just, in my moments of too much thinking, realized that we could have actually made it. I just didn't give it enough chance. I was too picky, and pointed out what I didn't like instead of taking a step back and looking at the whole picture. But yeah, I think we could have actually worked. Maybe not forever, but really, what lasts forever anymore? 

As it is, I think I just need to take that lesson, and apply it in the future, so I don't make the same mistake, ya know? 

Anywho, I've been chilling with some new music, and I am absolutely LOVING the song Different People by Artist Vs, Poet. So, you can check it out of you feel like it. If not, have a wonderful existence(:

Goodnight!

Long Time, No See..

Happy Thanksgiving!!!
First, I should say that I feel like its been forever that I've written on this thing. Which is okay, since no one reads it.
Second, id like to say that I have an extreme love hate relationship with food. Because dear goodness, thanksgiving is every fatty's favorite day. And I definitely did my part in consuming too much food on this glorious day. After which is when my hatred of food comes into play. Why does food have to be so delicious yet so easy to eat way more of than we actually need? I wish I could just say 'take this, food!' and put the fork down. But I guess THAT is where the fatty part comes in. When it comes to food and thanksgiving, I, along with millions of other Americans, am very good at seeing food, putting food on my plate, and then regretting every bite once I've eaten it. So I guess these next few days will be fun while I work off all the extra calories from this delicious and horrific day. Ahhhh.
Wow this post was awful. Oh well, I'm the only one who will be reading it. Night!

It's a Funny Thing Actually...

So.. Maybe I lied. It's not really funny. So if anyone is actually reading this, I'm sorry.
This post is actually about a guy. A guy who I thought was amazing...And that I really enjoy spending time with. He actually the best friend of one of my other guy friends. And we went to a movie.. And I felt completely comfortable with him. He's funny, smart, and thoughtful. He's go a sense of humor that I admire, and a way of knowing in the World that's impressive. I really liked him.. And the truth is, I still really like him. But it seems he's already moved on from whatever it was we had. I mean, I shouldn't be surprised, I'm not the type of girl he's gone for in the past.  I'm not rail thin and I dont have perfect hair.. And I guess maybe part of the reason he's distant is my not brig sure of myself. My lack of confidence you could say.. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm bigger than he is.. For me, it didn't even matter. I hope there is still hope. Because I was genuinely happy for the time we were close, and that's tough for me normally. Idk.. I'll stop being and idiot now.