I hate that feeling of always being so temporary in people's lives. Like, "oh hey! Things suck right now so we're going to be all buddy buddy and imma talk to you everyday and we'll get thru this together as long as you're there for me". And then BAM! One day they don't need me, and I'm thrown back out in the rain. Like really? Am I that disposable? So replaceable? Not that I don't want to be there for you, because I'd do anything for those I care about, but for once I'd like someone to want me around even when things are falling apart. I want to be that friend that people go to just because they enjoy my company, not because they can get something from me; whether that be support, a shoulder to lean on, money, etc.idk. I'll stop this rant now. I'm just. Meh.
Anywho, listening to Terrible Things by mayday parade.
And although by definition it's quite sad.. It's absolutely beautiful. And i can't get enough of it.