Hard to Handle...

Have you ever been told something or seen something that was difficult to bear? Like bad news coming from a doctor.. Or learning that your friend is depressed, or even realizing that you've succeeded in unknowingly pushed someone else out of your life? Im not gonna lie, today's been a tough day. It's hard having my mom not trust me. It's hard seeing someone so sick have to actu like she's not so no one asks questions. And... Well it was really hard for me to be in the same room a my friend and feel so utterly detached. Like I didn't even know her. Which could be true. That's the thing, I don't even know. I've spent my whole life on the outside looking in; sometimes by choice, but more often than not by fate. And I'm tired of that. I'm hoping that a lot can change in the month that's left of summer. In the meantime, y'all should look up Maroon 5's new album. I'm loving it! I really need to earn some money so I can buy the actual CD haha. Really like the songs The Man Who Never Lied and Beautiful Goodbye! Night all..