Levels of Difficulty...

No, the title to this post is not referring to gaming levels of difficulty or the level of difficulty of an excersise or something like that. It's referring to life, and the different difficulties that we face in our lifetimes. And again, I'm not referencing a great depression or a world war type difficulties either.  I'm mainly talking about the events in your life that are hard to swallow.. Like your dog running away, or realizing that an awful disease is taking the life of someone you love. More specially to me right now though, is how unbelievably hard it is to hold it together when I'm talking to my older brother on the phone and he starts crying into the phone because he misses you.. Hearing him make me promise to let him know if I need anything at all to just call him and he'll drop what he's doing and be here... Is incredible... But hearing him hurting because he hasn't seen us in a month... To me, that's pain. When the ones I love are hurting... That's like the highest level of difficulty of keeping it together for me... And it's hard for me to handle. Truth be told I haven't broken down in several months now to the point where I've made mistakes. But this is that feeling. That total pain. The all encompassing kind... I need to just sleep on it I guess... I wish things were different.