Change...

Good evening my three followers.. I'm sure you are all tired of my obnoxious pointless posts.. but well this is my blog and i'm going to write on it what I wish. and tonight I want to talk about my friends.. My closest friend, here I will call her LaFawnda, and I have been talking about college and our futures a whole lot lately.. Probably more often than I really like.. It's hard for me because she seems so ready for everything to come after graduation in the spring.. and I am not ready like her. She really is more like my sister to me than anything else.. We bother each other, call each other awful things in the most lovingly way haha, talk to each other about everything and are generally always around each other.. Anyway, we were talking about whether we think we'll stay close after graduation and everything.. I really hope we do, even if she moves two states away for college... She is basically my best friend, and she means the world to me. And I feel weird knowing that in a few short months, everything that i've known up until this point in my life is about to change drastically....

 Tonight at my school was senior night, where all the seniors get acknowledged. Of course, I started to tear up, because that's who I am sometimes, and I saw her after we came off the field, and I couldn't look at her without feeling like I was going to cry.. When she came back into the hallway after putting her stuff away, she came up to me and I was going to say goodbye, but she was like, "No, you have to hug me.. this was our last football game performance ever.." and it honestly took me by surprise, because she and I , throughout the course of our friendship have probably hugged each other a total of three times. It just showed me how much more I'm going to miss these times when i'm out of here... I love my friends so much. Then again, my other closest friend, barely even speaks to me anymore.. this  past week has been awful with that. I know he's going through some tough crap right now... But i hate this feeling of losing him already. Especially with how I feel about him.. so that kind of sucks... anyway, if you actually read this entire thing, congradulations you have now wasted a large amount of time on a pointless blog.. So, I will quit rambling now and get some sleep for tomorrow... If my friends happen to read this, know that I love you!