Wishes...

Right now, I wish I could make up my mind on, something. Anything really. I just. I feel like Im stuck, but I know it's my fault. I'm the one who has a hopeless dream of getting to be with someone who doesn't feel the same for me. I really like him. But he just wants to stay friends. And that feeling sucks. With scholarships and college and friends and the upcoming play... I just don't know where my heart is anymore.. It doesn't help that I feel like ive distanced myself from God. I know all I have to do is go bak to him. But I feel like I'm just stuck. I have to admit its been wonderful to have my cousin to talk to lately... Nice to know I'm not alone. 

It's been hard to not go back to old bad habits lately.. Extremely hard actually. I think I'm just going to goto bed... Is supposed to help everything, right? Night lovelies