Today.. Well overall it really wasnt that bad. I finished another college application.. Drama practice went pretty well( even though I suck and keep forgetting lines). I'm not failing any classes. I'm living and breathing and I have God on my side, so no, it wasn't a bad day.

But I hate hate hate having a dream about him, and feeling like I still have his sweatshirt on and then waking up and realizing that things are changing between us... And I don't understand why or what's going to happen. I don't like it.. It's like I'm losing him.. When I never officially had him. 

I'm hoping that my close friend, the one I called LaFawnda a few posts back?, was just having an off day today.. Because I'm pretty sure we only spoke like three words to each other the whole time. Hell, maybe it's me. It always seems to be me.. I am just soo good at pushing people away without realizing it.. Idk..like I said I hope it was just an off day because today was hell.. Tomorrow could be kinder though. See you soon