'Cause when push comes to shove you see what you're made of. You might bend til you break cause its all you can take. On your knees you look up decide you've had enough. You get mad you get strong wipe your hands, shake it off then you stand." That is whats playing right now. I just wish that i could communicate everything thats going on in my head. I absolutely cannot wait until summer. The sunshine, the freedom, the memories. Its what i live for.. at least most of the time. But when i really start to think about it i realize just how much this summer means. I'm going to be a senior after this summer. I'm going to have to start making plans for the future. I have to learn who is going to stay here for me. And i'll probably even find out who i am going to be. Ive been thinking about things that i want to do in my life. And as odd as it sounds, I want to write for a Newspaper sometime. Nothing big, just something. I'd also love to be a photographer. When you get that perfect shot, when the light hits the subject just right, its amazing. And that would be so much fun for me. I've been thinking about college, and majors and such. Well, since i was little i've always said that i wanted to be a nurse or a pediatrition. But lately i have been wondering if that's actually what i want to do with my life. I might just be thinking too much about it, but i want to do something with my life that is meaningful, but also that i enjoy. I dont just want to have some cubical job  where i clock in and clock out with no real meaning. But I guess before i get to that poin, i have to get through highschool. And that is even more terrifying. People can be cruel, and sometimes you don't get second chances. So I guess i need to start doing what I want to do, and not worry about everyone else. I just want to be happy. and really, Who says that i can't be? Sorry for such a long, random post. I guess that just shows how my brain works. Too cluttered and constantly thinking. Until Later! -A