Worry...

Today is mothers day.. And what am I doing? Worrying like usual. I feel like I failed my mon because I didn make a huge day out of mothers day because I couldn't afford to get her what I wanted to.. Which I know Sousa petty and stupid. And lately I've noticed how her memory has gotten worse, which chemo rain does that to you, but it seems worse tha usual. That with her starting this risky new treatment in a few weeks has me going crazy. Because even though we disagree sometimes, I couldn't make it without my mom. The thougt of losing her terrifies me beyond belief. I just want her to be okay. I want this new drug to work wonders and for her to be cancer free. I want a cure for this evil called cancer. And I pray every night for a miracle. No matter how down I get day to day, her strength gives me a reason to keep pushing forward. I don't have the words to begin to express my love for my momma. My lesson for you all for today? Never take your family for granted. When it comes down to it they are all you've got. And like my mom told me las night "happiness is this moment, where I can simply sit on my couch and eat rice crispy treats from a bowl while watching a moving with my daughter." night all. -A