Looking back while running forward...

So with the school year basically over... I've been looking back and realizing everything that has changed this past year. I started the year by basically losing my best friend. I made some new great friends. I acted in a fee plays and I won a state title. But I myself have also changed. Maybe not for the better or ever for the worse.. But I have changed... And now as I'm blasting towards my senior year I find myself looking back wondering what would have happened if I had done some things differently.. Would I have actually passed that class? Would I have gone to that dance? Maybe even gone to that party or kissed that boy that I had been talking to? I'm not looking back and regretting... Just wondering I guess. And I'm also wondering if I actually changed for the worse... Whether I really did fall into this hole too deep to the point that I've shut everyone out. Idk... Tonight I also made the mistake of weighing myself... Not a good thing to do... But whatever.. I wish I would hear from him.. I don't want to lose this guy friend... Now playing? Dancing Away With My Heart by Lady antebellum... Maybe you should give it a listen.