Missing...

So lately, there have been things going on that have made me realize just how much i miss having certain people in my life. There's my older brother who just graduated college and is staying three hours.. I feel like i'm losing him.. But I guess thats just part of growing up? I don't know, but I don't like it. Then there is my cousin... Who I used to be super close to, but I just now realized how much I don't actually know her. I know a little about her, but I don't know who she is as a person anymore.. But again, maybe that's just part of growing up too. Honestly? Growing up sucks. As little kids we always wanted to be older. But i'm now convinced that we were just brain washed to think that way. I just feel like as I get older, everyone I love is moving in different directions, including all my brothers and my cousins. I just hope that we find ways to stay connected in each others lives and we don't completely grow apart. Part of the reason this scares me so much is because my family, extended family included, doesnt have the best track record of communication. And I don't want to end up like that.
In another part of my little life, prom is totally stressing me out. Parts of the group I'm going with don't like other parts, and getting people to just put up with each other for one night is a little too much to ask for as it turns out. I want to have a good prom and after-prom. Its actually the first school dance i've ever gone to. I have never really been into this kind of thing.. I guess you could say that i'm NOT a girly girl.
Now playing? Hit the Lights by Selena Gomez. I don't care that everyone hates on her, i really like her music. She's not just another self obsorbed celebrity. So Stop The Hate.
"It's the time you totally screwed up, Still you try to get it out your brain, It's the fight you had when you didn't make up, It's the past that you're dieing to change. It's all the money that you're saving, While the good life passes by. It's all the dreams that never came true, Cause you're too damn scared to try."