"You okay?"...

Cant't even begin to say how many times I've hear that in the past 5 years... I used to answer completely honestly. Then I realized that in today's society no one really wants to know the truth. So unless I really trust you, I probably just answer with what you want to hear so I don't have to explain myself. Today I was asked who is was that made me get so upset... Well, I answered that it was no one, that it wasn't a big deal. The thing is, I just didn't want to say the truth because she wouldn't have understood. I was upset at myself. I had been doing so well and then I fell back down and let myself down. THAT is why I was upset. It wasn't just some petty high school drama. It was real life problems going on in my teenage life. So many things are on my mind right now. But I feel like the only place I can talk about everything that's really going on is in my notebook, where I write everything down. That way I don't waste my peers' time trying to vent everything that is really going on in my life. I love you guys, whoever out here that is reading this. Tonight I have an amazing song stuck on repeat. A really goo friend showed it to me a while back... Who knew so much could change since then?.. Now playing? To Be With You by Mr. Big